What the...!

Why everyone blame on me?!! I feel sad kind of. People who I really like :( When somebody is sad about something else, should not pull everything on me! It's not fair at all! I understand people has too many difficulties and problems in life but it's not fair that they thing they are the only one who has problems. I have my own problems too! Problems that are making me really crazy in these days. Anyway, it's just life; let is pass! Today is 9th of August and summer is going to finish and school again.

Worst New Year that I had

:(( I am not good! I still have headache! I couldn't sleep enough because I saw nightmare all the night! I am in SHOCK! I was so happy because of the new year but everything changed! In just 2 sec! To whom should I trust now?!!! To whom?!!! Life is sucks! It's really sucks!

عمر مارا مهلت امروز و فردای تو نیست
من که یک امروز مهمان توام فردا چرا؟
آسمان چون شمع جمع مشتاقان پریشان میکند
در شگفتم من نمی پاشد ز هم دنیا چرا؟
در شگفتم من نمی پاشد ز هم دنیا چرا؟

I really wanted to cry last night but I couldn't because It was a really hard shock! I am still confused! Still confused! Too many stuff is spinning in front of my eyes and doesn't match or even when they match with difficulties, doesn't make enough sense!

Tired!

گفته بودم نخواهم بود برای مدتی 

دیشب وقتی به خانه آمدم ، دلم گرفت

به طوری که نتوانستم جلوی اشکهایم را بگیرم

خسته بودم و خواب آلود

ولی خواب در چشم ترم می شکست

نزدیک های صبح بود که خوابیدم

شاید بهتر باشد قدری استراحت کنم

شب تار یک و بیم مو ج و گر د ابی چنین حایل

کجا دانند حال ما سبک بالان ساحل ها 

Had a bad day!

Sing a sad song just to turn it around

Yalda Night + FaceBook

It was a great night. I really had a lot of fun with friends. Except the fun and music which we performed, there were somethings that made me sad too. The first one was, my parents weren't there tonight :( I wish that they were there too. As well as, during our performance I saw something that made me really sad :( I just didn't expect that! In addition to these, there were another thing but I am not able to write it here!

I don't want to use FaceBook for a while! I got tired of it! I had enough till here! Kasra is sleeping now but I am still in front of my laptop and writing. Delam yekam gerefte, khastam, vali nemitunam joloye rikhtane ashkhayam ro begiram.

Sometimes, you are right but you can't prove it! :(

My Thursday

Today is another Thursday,

I am feeling much better than yesterday but I need to rest more to become well completely. At least I don't have pain anymore :) I hope I become pretty good to be able to attend Open House at New Comers tonight. :) I have to go to Small Claims to give them my complain too. In addition, I should talk to UPEI for sure about my English Course which I am still mad of my prof. He doesn't care about his students and it's what I hate! Apart from that, everyday I saw something in Internet that bothers me. Maybe I don't use Internet or just FaceBook for a while! I don't know really! I am just tired of some childish acts. Maybe that's not a good decision but anyway FaceBook took a lot of my time and I can get most from it instead of going around FaceBook.

Such an unfair life!

It's really unfair. Everything finally will become my fault even if I don't do anything. I feel a high pressure on myself. I am done with my exams and I need rest but I didn't have chance to do that yet. My mind is full of unsolved problems and are making me tired. I agree that most of these problems is my fault but not all of them :( My main problem is that I trust one of my friend and thought that person know everything but I was wrong. I am not complaining but I am just don't like when people think I am stupid! Should I change my way?! I need to be alone and think. I think I should be more serious. I am complaining legally about some stuff in these days and you know, people think that I am a person who like to complain for everything :( while I hate to fight people. I always think that a human can talk and negotiate everything like human. What do you feel if you buy something with all the money you have and you find out the person who you bought from is a charlatan?! OMG, I am so lucky in everything!!!!

تو که نوشم نه‌ای نیشم چرایی

تو که یارم نه‌ای پیشم چرایی

تو که مرهم نه‌ای بر داغ ریشم

نمک پاش دل ریشم چرایی

Friendship and Bio Exam

I am very sensitive about friends. I don't know it's a good thing or bad thing! I really get sad when a friend of mine talks ... behind me and do stupid and childish acts! I don't like to feel that I wasted my time and energy for somebody. I don't like people abuse my skills and play with me like a tool. Anyway, we will see!
I am still tired after chemistry exam and I have bio exam tonight. I am not in mood of study :) but I have to. There is no other way! After 10:00 PM, I will be done! :) I need to rest but I still don't have time for that, even after 10:00 PM. I have to mark bunch of papaers and input bunch of marks :S Oh, my break finished! It's time to go back to study :)

I hate the word "soor" :(

I really hate the word "soor" :(
Evey body ask me "give me soor!" what's this?!!!
I have too many problems in these days. What soor should I give?! Soor because I am busy and dieing and under pressure?!!
I bought car?! :(( What car, I am fighting to return it. It was hundreds of problems.
You can't imagine what's going on! Sometimes I think my name = bad luck :( Always things that never happen for other people, happen for me. Now, everything is complicated. I have too much stuff to study as well. I am getting headache! I really wanted to cry today because of everything! OMG! Life is really not fair sometimes!
I fell tired :(

Crazy day!

Today was a really busy day full fo problems for me :S You can't imagine the pressure which was on me today :( I have bunch of stuff to study + bunch of stuff to mark. In addition, my landlord drived me really really crazy today. I argued and he wasn't able to answer my questions. I told him that I am going to complain. Finally he gave me a notice tonight. He wrote some ... on the papar as reason and I shocked when I read them. It was so funny but I wasn't in a good mood to laugh and I was really tired, otherwise I couldn't stop laughing! Here it is:

-Feeding Crows on Balcony,now pooping on other
decks,
-Smoke alarm has gone off several
times,
-Thumping and banging-Moving furniture late at
night,
-loud talking late at night

-1 person on the
lease, 4 people now living in the
apartment,
-proof of Tenant insurance not provided as per
lease agreement,

OMG! There is something wrong with him I think. Too much lies.

I feel usless!

I feel absolutely useless today :( Not lucky at all today. My job :( I don't have it any more! That's not fair at all. I really don't know why life is doing like this with me! I tried to help my friends a lot but I am thinking I am making everything worst :( I am not lucky!
I am studying everyday but I still feel a little not know everything. That's what make me sad.
But anyway, It's life :) I have to calm down and take it easy :D I think life is pretty with all of these problems. :D I am ganna stand in front of all problems because I am stronger :D haha

why?!!!

- "I am not talking to you anymore"
+ "Why?"
- "nothing"!

I really hate when somebody tell you are Culprit and don't say why! I really hate it! I am always frank in these cases and when I say somebody that I am so sad at him/her, I explain the reason because I might be in misunderstanding. I saw many good friends that separated because of stupid misunderstandings. Anyway, except this point, it was an awesome day for me. Everything is working in the way I wish in the university till now and I am becoming really to go to the next stage. I just need to study a little bit more and try to prepare the lessons before the classes.

Let me tell you something. Don't talk to me anymore but I will still keep my words as I promised to you!

Not feel good!

:S I am not feeling good :S I still have pain!

It's like 2:30 am and I just got home.

I didn't study anything as I planed today because we went to practice and play soccer in Colonel Gray Field and also going outside to play pool.

injustice! I don't like it

Today one of my friends told me something that made me sad :( I don't like when someone saying something injustice :S Maybe that's my fault again. A I emotionalist?! I dunnow! But anyway it's not acceptable when somebody that you consider as a real friends, tell you something... Never mind! I just didn't expect that :( Maybe again it's m,y fault, dunnow!

Making fun of life!

I was talking about life today morning, haha, I can remember! That's not nice when somebody or someone play wit your life; when you have a hope and somebody who doesn't have enough capacity and qualification makes everything pissed off for you :( I don't like that! I am so happy that I said whatever was in my mind. I don't care when some idiots don't have enough capacity to hear. Life is not really fair sometimes! I am thinking about the amount of money I spent in this way and all of them were actually cribbed by them! I really wanted to exclaim about it and say "What the hell is that?! Is it really fair?!" :( Unfortunately life is not fair sometimes and it's not in a way we like to be. I am going turn over this page and go to the next page. Life is a book that you have to turn over the pages of it and when you go back through the previous pages, toy can't change them cuz they already published! :(

People to whom I trusted!

It's really difficult when you trust somebody's talkings and when you see there is exactly the inverse thing in reality :( I really shocked. Maybe I took these too seriously but I really shocked! :( That's not taste good, believe me! Am I stupid that believe and think possitive when somebody tell me something?! :( {it might be just joking} yes, I know. But sometimes jokings cost a lot. Nevermind, these are actually more experiences in my life. I try to think possitive about these! I hope I am in the right way.

Calm Down!

I get to angry sometimes. Just for some moment. Too much pressure :D I really have to calm down sometimes. I got too angry because of UofT and if the boss of UofT was in front of me today, for sure sir mizadamesh! :D You know what's the funny thing? I wanted to register in UPEI just in case but they didn't let me in! That's a real jok. UPEI doesn't let someone register! lol but this happened for me today. It was so nice! I was so angry because of UofT's behaviour and then try to calm down and register in UPEI as a backup, but it makes me more angry. I just said "what the .... is that?!" UPEI gave me probation by mistake. They require me to take a special course called SSP. It's abbriviation of Student Success Program!!! I laughed too much when I found the abbriviation of it because if I want to become more successful than I am, for sure I will change my University, not by telking this stupid course. They said that we gave you this becuase you got less than 60% in half of your courses!!! I got 8 courses and just one of them was under 60%. And that course was just one mark under 60. I really have nothing to say!

What the...!

I feel I can't stand it anymore! How long shoud I wait more! My imagination again and where realistic fails :( They are really making me crazy! I have too much stuff todo and too many difficulties. It's not fair! Too many problems ocure at the same time for me and most of them need a key which I am waiting for it. I am always patient about the problems and looking for possible ways to solve it but this time is different! I should just wait and wait! I really hate this kind of solution which solve the problems in a long period of time. What the... is that! What can I do? NOTHING! Opportunities are passing after each other and I am watching them one by one, just watching! What can I do? NOTHING! Watching sunrise and sunset is beautoful but it will be boring and depressing if you repeat it for a long long period! What can I do? NOTHING!

Stupid Embassy!

First of all, I wish you that you never go to Iran's Embassy in Ottawa. When somebody is in a foreign country and go to the embassy of his/her country, should feel safe, peace, happiness. But the Iran's Embassy in Ottawa will bring you the exact inverse thing. People there made me real angry. They don't do people's work at all! Just getting salary, that's it! They didn't accept my document because they didn't accept the stamp and sign of the Embassy of Iran in Abu Dhabi! You can't imagine the percentage of stupidity of them! Never mind!

Getting mad of the landoenwr

I really getting mad of my landowner. He is making a warofnerves! This is the third time he came to my rented house and telling that I am making noise during the night. That's really stupid! {come down man!} why should I come down Brace?!!! He doesn't have the right to do this without any documentry. I will show him!!! He is thinking that I am stupid and wants to tease me!!! He told me several days ago: "Take of your shoose when you enter the building because it ganna makes sound when you walk on the wood!!!!!!!!!". {that's sounds stupuid!} yes, I know. So, I will take my shoose every time I enter the building and bring them up and show them to his camera on the enterance door!!! And I will tell anyone that I see (specially in my building), what he asked me to do! I have many difficulties in these days and he is making my problems worst! It's like he is spying us!